(this edition brought to you courtesy of the dumb-ass who checked us out at the Wal*Mart and the letters P, M, and S)

Listen, do you see that I'm buying two packages of super jumbo maxi pads with wings and a shit-ton of candy? Does that tell you anything about my mental state right now? Do you want a piece of me? Really?

I'll tell you more about it some other time. Matt thought I should share that much though.

-John Hodgeman's The Areas of My Expertise
-Jon Stewart's America: The Book-The Audiobook
-Stephen Colbert's I Am America and So Can You!

'K. I think that's all. :)

So, I'm guessing by this point that most of you have heard that Isaac Hayes (Chef) is leaving South Park. ( Here's the article ) and here are my 2 cents:

I have to say I agree with Matt Stone that he could do it as long as they weren't making fun of his church (I wish the worst possible case of post-partum depression known to man on Katie Holmes for her douchebaggery in being with Tom). Still, it's sad that he's chosen to leave. The show will go on without him. They are equal opportunity offenders, and I respect them for that. If you can't laugh at yourself, what else do you have?

Regarding a recent viewing of "Walk the Line":
I have a real distaste for Johnny Cash’s first wife. All she wanted was what she wanted—a home, a husband with a 9-5 job, the white picket fence. She never cared that Johnny wanted or needed more. I can’t imagine being in a relationship like that. I know that part of it just that that was what you did then, but I couldn’t have lived then. A lot of people probably think I’m crazy for supporting Matt’s ambitions the way I do, but I know that it makes him happy, and I believe in him 110%. I don’t think I’d be with him if I couldn’t support his dreams, if I didn’t believe in him 110%. And I like to believe that Johnny Cash and June Carter were soul mates. I believe that he died of a broken heart and I believe that if they had met under better circumstances, she would’ve supported him and believed in him 110% before he made it. In fact, if she didn’t believe in him 110% she wouldn’t have saved him from himself over and over again.

Regarding a recent commercial for a car that uses voice commands:
I could never have a car that uses voice commands. I talk and yell too much (even when I’m alone) in my car. It would get confused. I would never get anywhere. And it would explode.

Regarding a recent viewing of "Sex and the City" on TBS:
How in the world did Carrie pick Mr. Big over Aiden? How?! Aiden was freakin’ perfect! I will never understand...

Slept in a little after Matt left for work, had a good time at karaoke last night, went by myself for the first time in ages. Good stuff. I ::heart:: my friends.

Not sore from working out, which is good, because yesterday I wanted to die, but made myself go to the gym anyway. I was a good girl. Yay for me.

Need to get going soon so I have time to do a DVD before work.

Who else saw Biggest Loser: Engaged Couples last night? Good stuff. Jillian still reigns supreme. Okay, I'm going to go back to myspace now and play around some more and check on some more ljs. Hoo ah. :)

Productivity has slowed for the moment. I'm exhausted. Been working a lot. Had a fight with my dad last night. My to-do list is daunting and I just want to quit my life. Need to get my oil changed. Need to pick up more birth control at family planning. I hate being poor. I hate the cheap b.c. I get from f.p. I miss the good stuff. Wish I could afford it.

I'm looking at address labels online. I want Kappa Delta ones. I've been really feeling the sisterly love/spirit lately. I even wore my pin the other day. I put KD seals on my Christmas cards, I used the labels they sent me and I loved them. I want more. Small things, I know. Maybe insignificant. But they symbolize something much deeper to me. I might not say it all the time, but I love my sisters, I loved living in the house, and there are times I really miss that.

I guess I'm quarterlifing it pretty hard right now. I lack focus, which I need more than anything. I need to get this application done. It's my only hope, right now.

I'm with Ted--here's hoping 2006 is better than 2005.

I did laugh yesterday. So hard tears came to my eyes. One of my friends at work cracked me up (at the expense of a co-worker, but hey, that's how it is sometimes). Life isn't all bad. But right now, it's a little overwhelming.

Merd, that "devotional" you posted today couldn't be more fitting to my mood right now. Thank you.

Zucchini nut muffins are the bomb-diggity.

Now I'm going to go to fp to get my bc so I can get on with my day. Hang tough, kids.

Sorry I'm absent--work is crazy (I've gotten overtime 2 weeks in a row, with at least one more solid 40 hour week in sight), I'm going nuts trying to get this damn application (due in 10 days!) ready and get ready for the holiday. The holiday stuff is fun though--I'm looking forward to baking cookies and writing cards tomorrow, my shopping is about half done and Matt and I are decorating the apartment tomorrow night. Hoo ah! Thank God for my little computer--she's been getting a ridiculous amount of use lately. Josh came in for a whirlwind visit last week, so we spent a lot of time hanging out, which was nice. I miss him a lot.

My headache is gone, I'm betting the lack of coffee up until I got to Arabica was the cause (I usually have a cup with Matt in the morning). Still I need to get home soon so I can pack for tomorrow morning and get ready for work (I gotta be there at 1). I'm making myself get up early tomorrow so I can get stuff done and get to the fun stuff--shopping, baking, decorating, carding, etc.

I'll post more soon, perhaps tomorrow morning. Hang tough, kids.

I wish Arabica had their hazelnut coffee everyday--I love that stuff. But this Cinnanut is good enough, I guess...

more later...hang tough, kids...

enter the "[your name] needs" in google search and hit enter. list the top 10 results.

1. Emily needs...almost 24 hour care because of her disability...[not quite]
2. Emily needs...to develop a support network that will help her transition...[better]
3. Emily needs...bacground...[not sure where this is going]
4. Emily needs...to find something that's her own to fulfill her...[i would agree]
5. Emily needs...to talk to him...[not sure what about...]
6. Emily needs...to be told "No, there are certain thnigs that just are not..." [again, don't know where this is going...]
7. Emily needs...to be whipped into shape by "Nanny 911" [not quite, but I'd take trainer Jillian from Biggest Loser]
8. Emily needs...to get control of her business and begin to set boundaries...[okay, then...]
9. Emily needs...Attention...[always!]
10. Emily needs...a sponsor...[okay, not sure why...]

Mine were not as eerily accurate as some...hang tough, more later. I'm off to conquer my fear of teh weight room at the gym. ;)

The Biggest Loser—
I’m soooooo glad that Nick is gone and his attitude in his follow-up shows exactly why he needed to go. He didn’t have the right attitude about the whole thing, and he was annoying—good riddance.

I’m rooting for Dr. Jeff, Suzy and now I have to admit Matt (as much as the crying former athlete commercials drove me insane all summer). And I can understand why Suzy’s team was mad at her—but it was because of her that they won. She knew she couldn’t do it any other way, and Ryan was the one she brought with her. So I’m glad it worked out for her. Maybe it was kind of cheating, but I’m glad she knew herself and her strengths and weaknesses to do what she had to do. And come on, how could you not love Dr. Jeff. He’s the man. I don’t care if he wins the money; I just want him to do really well.

To Do List—
Purposely waited on this post so I could cross off another thing or two…
*Download information from Loyola U Chicago by October 1
*Download information from 3 other schools by October 1
*Finish reading Quarter-Life Crisis
*finish reading Overcoming Anxiety
*take one practice GRE psych test
*review 3 chapters from GRE study guide
*outline for Loyola entrance essay

Vivien—
My car is jealous of my computer. She liked being the big expensive toy. Now she has a younger “sister” and she’s jealous. She threw a fit. And I had to send her to the car doctor to get fixed. Only there was much more wrong than I thought so I’m going to be spending more money on her than I had anticipated. She needs to stop being a sissy and deal with it. (Don’t you love how I personify my car?) So for today, I’m using Matt’s car.

Today—
Did some laundry, watched “The Biggest Loser”, worked on the stuff on my to-do list. I need to read some more and do some other things from my personal to-do list for my day off (oy vey). Feel pretty accomplished

So I feel like I've been fairly productive today--I worked for 4 hours this morning (giving me damn near 40 hours this week), uploaded about half of my Elvis Costello collection and a few other CDs to iTunes, found artwork to go with the Elvis I have uploaded, found a new background picture and requested a book from the library.

This week I have stuff to do though, seriously. It's been fun to play with my computer, but I need to start using it for its intended purpose as well--school shizzle. I've been a slacker with all of that lately (and a lot of other things) so here is the list for the week--if I tell you all, then I have to do it. So here goes:

*Download information from Loyola U Chicago by October 1
*Download information from 3 other schools by October 1
*Finish reading Quarter-Life Crisis
*finish reading Overcoming Anxiety
*take one practice GRE psych test
*review 3 chapters from GRE study guide
*outline for Loyola entrance essay

So how glad am I that I don't have to work at the buttcrack of dawn next week? I'll tell you, I'm extremely happy. I'm something of a morning person, but I hate getting up that early. I don't like to be in bed still at noon, I start getting edgy somewhere after 10, but I don't like seeing 5 or 6 a.m. unless I'm seeing it from behind.

So yeah, not sure what's on the agenda for tonight, but I'm looking forward to a relaxing evening, one way or another. Perhaps Elyria's Parade of Bands, perhaps no, we'll see what the boyfriend is up for.

Well, I'm going to attempt to do some other stuff on here...more soon. Hang tough, kids...

I'm so psyched that I'm hearing this song on what I can only guess is some form of Muzak. I love this song! :)

My new goals are to post something everyday in my lj (shouldn't be too hard for now) and to respond to emails warranting a response as soon as I read them. Almost didn't do that today, but I remembered that I told myself I was going to do it, so I did. Hopefully getting a headset for my phone this Christmas will help me return more calls--I find that fun gadgets make mundane things easier.

Got my GRE Psychology practice test in the mail today--guess that means I'm really going to do this again, God help me. So I need to make myself study and all that jazz. I also have a book of practice tests that I should go through again (it's been over a year since I looked at it) and I should get on Chris K about those review cards he promised me. I really, really want to get into grad school.

I'm having so much fun with my new computer. She has a sticker now. It's a nod to "Hellboy"--a sticker for the Bureau for Paranormal Research and Defense. When Matt bought this package of stickers I purposely saved this one to go on my new computer whenever I would get it, and I think it's perfect and very fitting.

Meeting my friend John for dinner, then I think we're going to hang out with one/some of our friends for awhile. Possibly another game night, because much as I was anxiety attacking at the time, I really had fun at the last one. I wish we could institute them on a regular basis, but our schedules vary so much that it's hard to make that happen. Oh well. Matt's right, I need to stop isolating myself so much, it isn't good for me (even though I do tend to have anxiety attacks before we go out, I'm usually okay once I'm there). It's something for me to work on. One of many things, actually.

I'll be very glad to get back to my normal schedule at work, though at least I have one day off next week. I like working 40 hours because I need the money, but I also like not being at work all the bloody time, which is pretty much what it has felt like for the past week. Two more days until Vangie gets back and I'm out of the office for a spell. I'll be on the floor most of next week, which is fine with me, because as much as I like my box, I'm starting to get a little sick of my box. Still no word on the raise I asked for, but Debbie has mentioned a couple of times that she's brought it up to them again, so we'll see what happens.

On that note, I guess I'm going to post this and tool around online a little more before I go a few doors down to meet John. Hang tough, kids...more later...

So I had a thought last night, wanted to share with y'all...
Maybe this hurricane Rita is karma's way of biting GWB in the ass...people say he didn't step up the way he should've in dealing with Katrina, so now one is headed for his beloved Texas. Food for thought (though let me make it clear that I don't wish this on anyone).
Need to post something on this quarterlife crisis thing...but not sure what to say other than I'm working on a play list...he he he...
to be continued...more later...hang tough, kids...

I have just used my computer to talk to two friends, make lunch plans and download a client for my el jay...and i should get going...whoopee for two hour parking...more soon :)

So I've realized that I really really need to get a new computer. One of my own. One that works. This coming to the library and/or trying to use Matt's computer just ain't workin' for me. I'm in love with the Mac powerbooks and the biggest problem, besides funding it of course, is deciding between the 12" and the 15". Combo drive is the given (why do I need to burn DVDs?). Price difference is $500, which makes me want to go for the larger one, since it's not that much cheaper to get the smaller one. I mean, $500 is a significant chunk of money, but not when you're considering shelling out $1500 vs $2000. And I could handle the $50 a month (roughly) with their financing options. The problems are that (A) I shouldn't spend the money right now. There are other things that money should go towards first, and (B) if I get into school a year from now it will be cheaper to get it then--I can get the Mac Education discount for being a student. What I should try to do is see if I can get a discount later if I buy it now then get into school--like if they would take some money off of my bill for it, since part of the reason I want it is that it would make it much easier to do my school applications, etc. I guess I really need to look at my finances and what not again to decide if I can afford to do it or not right now. Eesh.

Got up early today (my last day off for almost 2 weeks) to take Matt's car to get her oil changed. Yeah, there was an easier way to do it, but we didn't think about that until AFTER we'd gotten to the car place. Oh well. So I'll have to pick him up from work tonight before we can go back to Oberlin. Hoo ah.

Biggest Loser 2 totally rocks. I'm rooting for Dr. Jeff hardcore because I like the fact he realizes doctors who don't take care of themselves are part of the problem. Plus he's got a wife and four daughters to take care of. Yeah, he's by far the one I'm pulling for. And I'm not sad that they got rid of Ruben. I wasn't impressed by him.

I need to find 3 more schools I think I'd like to go to by the time I go to bed Saturday night. The problem is that I don't know where I want to go. I really like the sounds of the program at Loyola Chicago. University of Illinois at Chicago sounds like a possibility too. I'd kind of like to look at the St. Louis area and maybe further west--Washington state is one that has been thrown around a bit between Matt and myself.

God I really want my own computer. Seriously, like words can not describe how badly I want to get my own computer...

Now I remember why I was interested in the U of Missouri--one of the researchers whose material I used for my senior project teaches there. And to me that is very cool...

I can say I've found 3 schools. I hate doing this research in the library. I want my own computer, damnit. Oh well...I shall see what I can figure out...

More later...hang tough, kids...

At present the terror level is:



And as my wonderful boyfriend pointed out--this means the worst it could possibly be is "Elmo". And I think that's funny as hell...


And I just signed up for the Psychology GRE round 2--which will take place exactly 2 months from today. I could wet myself.

My life is pretty boring. Really. This week I was sick (had a cold--doesn't happen often, guess that was kind of exciting) and I worked. A lot. I'll get overtime (which has actually been ok'd by the boss 'cause of the extenuating circumstances). Check will rock next week--40 hours, overtime + holiday pay for Monday. Whoo ha. I need it. Especially since I dropped (gulp!) $100 at Borders. Granted most of that was on Matt's birthday present. But I did buy myself a couple of things. And I got a present for my friend Marie's bridal shower tomorrow--it's awesome. I'm so proud because it's unique. I got a few of the kitchen utensils she'd asked for, then got a pretty linen napkin and a really unique vase and put the utensils in it like flowers. It looks soo cool. I almost want to be an uber geek and take a picture of it before I give it to her. he he he. And she has an artistic eye so I'm sure she'll appreciate it. And Matt's birthday is Wednesday and it's driving me crazy to not give him his gifts yesterday because I have them and I want to give them to him NOW! Oh well...patience is a virtue, I guess. Okay, I really don't have much else to say because my life is boring at present. So I'm off. More later. Hang tough...I'm out...